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While I feel I have lived several lifetimes lately I have felt like through my journey I may be facing something different. A change of elevation or status maybe. As this journey in this life comes closer to its end, I think I may be either done with the current cycle of lessons and realizeContinue reading “Ascension or recognition of coming power”

dont forget to acknowledge the ancestors at all times. sometimes they have something to say to you. They may be upset and frustrated but remember they are there to guide you to something you may have forgotten or ignored.

I had the realization that i became an alcoholic to avoid dealing with my responsibilities. I mean isn’t that why everyone becomes an addict? Things get to be too much, and we find something that helps us forget it for a minute and a minute more. The next thing you’re a full on addict strugglingContinue reading “Back to work”

I’m just a million little pieces. I haven’t been whole in a long time. Each decision I was forced to make tore another piece of me. Choices made for others, there’s another piece. Choices on the playground, pieces of me scattered. Carried away like leaves on the wind. Which one do I call? Who doContinue reading “Pieces”

I have been struggling for years with my mental health. I have withdrawn from social activities almost entirely. Tonight I removed all my socials from my devices. They were meant for me to still keep a connection to people that allowed me a level of comfort at an arms length. The thing is it wasContinue reading “Breaking points”

Loss is a sobering thing. It causes us to feel less because what we lost has such a gravity that it folds in on itself exponentially like a black hole. The light never quite shimmers the same. You spend so much time trying to keep your head above water that you forget that there’s soContinue reading “Gone”

I haven’t been writing much lately. It’s hard to try to put things into words when you don’t understand your own thoughts or feelings. The struggles of seeing things the way I do is it’s easy to fall off the wrong side of the tightrope. The nonstop struggle with reality and sanity intertwined with anxietyContinue reading “Flickering away”

I’m different. I’m different than I was yesterday. What was yesterday? What is today? After a while you stop even trying to track it. I mean it’s just one more thing that will trigger that existential dread and the anxiety that comes with it. When I think of the past it’s as far away asContinue reading “This time around”

Two men in battle. They posture and make speeches either understand. They both stand alone. Only the shy and earth to witness their battle. The fear of the unknown of the other feeds the strength of their wills to live. The battle pursues while they fight for their lives. One stands covered in blood whileContinue reading “Stanza off”

Time spent on all fours. Smell of the earth. The worms and bugs in the ground. The must that fills the air masked with the smell of the Forrest. The trees have a scent of their own. They talk to the others sharing information. Natures own internet. The echoes of the songs from others fillContinue reading “Greed and ego”