I’ve been on a strange journey. It’s brought me to my past, as well as a past of a former incarnation.

We have patterns we see in our lives. Action and consequence. I’ve tried to live a life of peace and have done the best I could to avoid harm to anyone. Sometimes though we are faced with a decision where no matter the choice, there is no option that is painless. We try to see what will hurt less but not all choices are easy. There’s a lot of choices we make that are impossible decisions. We can only see into the horizon so far. That being said, we may get faced with consequences from past decisions that may come back to haunt us. This causes a lot of stress and chaos suddenly that you weren’t prepared for.

Last night I dreamt I was making a hotel. My wife and I had a large main building and several cottages on the property as well. No matter how hard we worked, we had a problem with spiders. There were 2 that were the main culprits. One was a giant tarantula. She was bigger than my hand. She was almost like family. A beloved pet. She never caused any real problem, but of course not everyone enjoyed being around her. They cast aspersions and sideways glances, but she was loved by us. However there was another spider. It was another giant spider. This one looked the body was size of a baseball. It was shaped like a giant black widow spider except it was white. This one was aggressive and started making life difficult for us. It had children that started infesting the hotel. They were venomous and vicious. It wade it so the patrons started trying to attack the spiders whenever they saw them. In the chaos our beloved tarantula was attacked and injured. She hid in a box and wouldn’t come out. I felt torn. I wanted to tell everyone to leave so I could care for a member of the family or keep it his and try to keep the panicked patrons from leaving.

I woke up this morning unsettled with the decision I was faced with. Spiders in dreams tend to talk about bad luck or dealing with manipulation from others in our lives. It brought an unsettling feeling to my morning. I realize that there are things in my life now that are too close to this vision. So now I’m faced with either just forgetting it and move forward saying I can deal with it as it comes, but the ravens that hang around me are telling me to keep an eye open. They usually are here to draw our attention to something we are missing. So everything outside of myself is telling me to watch out for things trying to upset my balance and manipulate me. Now I have to make a decision on how much I let this influence my life. For now though I will appreciate my coffee, and another beautiful morning with my family and the spirits who visit me everyday.


Published by Snowy Owl

There was a lot more written here before. Then I saw it was irrelevant. I am just another person with an autoimmune disease and spectrum ”disorder” who is highly sensitive to their environment. I thought I would write a few things down, so here you go. Swim at your own risk!

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